Waking Up

Assalamualaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakatuh. Ohoi... Dah lama sangat rasanya (read : it had been a long, very long time indeed).

Very well then, conclusively, I had not written any single word on this blog for a month plus. Basically, I'm guessing all of you know my excuse. Because I was leading an uncertain life previously. How uncertain? Very uncertain, that I couldn't even put my thoughts on anything. The brain kept on running analysis on every single matter, providing impulse that often leads to a very very bad decision. And the Iman kept on going up and down. Enough of that, I was desperate for a push, a push not to go forward, but to return. Return to the Mighty Him, Allah S.W.T.

Many of us face this confusing anxiety. Despite of everything that work just fine, there is a tiny little hole in our soul that keeps growing bigger to alert us that, 'Hey, there's something wrong somewhere. No wait, there's something wrong everywhere'. That's the feeling that you would never want to experience. Trust me. I am being completely honest here :) But that is what you shall receive when you condemn yourself to abandon your relationship with Allah S.W.T.

Wait, what?! You thought it was the other way around? You thought that Allah is the one who abandon you by granting you a pile of obstacles and hardship (which compared to the sufferings that the sahabah had endured for Islam was completely nothing. Heh.)? Then you are wrong. You were making a really really bad call. He, Allah S.W.T will never ever ever abandon you. He's there for you. Waiting for your prayers. Carefully assessing your little efforts to get close to Him. Look, all those hardships, are His assistance for you. To guide us back on this straight path. Because He knows the best for us and all the obstacles given to us is to test us. How can we claim we are among the believers, when there is no proof and examination to certify that you will still believe through thick and thin. The logic is, you can't claim to be smart unless you pass your examination with good grades. This is how these obstacles from Him work as well. Be patience and pray hard.

Or do you think that you would enter the garden while yet the state of those who have passed away before you has not come upon you; distress and affliction befell them and they were shaken violently, so that the Apostle and those who believed with him said : When will the help of Allah come? Now surely the help of Allah is near!

(Al Baqarah 2 : 214)

Surely with difficulty is ease. With difficulty is surely ease

(Al Insyirah 94 : 5 - 6)

He is near. He always does. Only us fail to amaze ourselves with his grace through this journey.

Knowing dakwah and tarbiyyah is a real blessing for me. But knowing isn't enough. It will make no difference. Carrying out dakwah and tarbiyyah will create the ripple of good effects. And not just any ordinary duty, this task must be completed even if it meas we have to die for it. Dakwah and tarbiyyah is a long, time and energy consuming plus tiring process. But this is the price for His jannah. Work hard, really really hard in the dunya and rest well in the akhirat with peace and satisfaction. Allah is just and fair. He would never instruct us something beyond capabilities. We are after all, the vicegerence of Allah :')

Dakwah do not need us, but we need dakwah

Even myself, had been pondering how ignorant I was. I need to get started. I am desperate to go all out for dakwah and tarbiyyah. I want to be pleased with my effort for dakwah on my deathbed. I had been sleeping for a long time. Hibernating with ease. It is really time to wake up. Wake up and preach the hearts in need :') For I am willing to die for this... For the glory of Islam, I will :')

And (as for) those who strive hard for Us, We will most certainly guide them in Our ways; and Allah is most surely with the doers of good.

(Al Ankabut 29 : 69)

3, 2, 1,.... Dakwah dan Tarbiyyahku kini bermula....

Wassalam...